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Wednesday, February 22, 2012
I don't have a choice. My life is set.
I do have a choice. I can look on the bright side. It's just another loving challenge thrown at me. I can take it. I don't know about some other people. They give up at the slightest difficulty. If that's what they intend to do, then good luck and goodbye. Am I selfish? I don't think so. I remember clearly how I spend my 24 hours: I wake up at 5.30: I pump milk for the kids. I brush my teeth and change to go to work. I help him send the kids to school. I go to work. I work really hard. Like a dog. Really hard. Then I pump milk again. I get picked up on most days them proceed to pick up the kids with him. I shuffle the kids to the car, get driven home. I feed the kids dinner. Hopefully can destress by catching a few minutes of tv. I usually get interrupted to wash a buttock, break up a fight, make the baby sleep, appease an angry person, fight my own body's virus. I try to pump milk again if I could, otherwise I'd get the kids ready for bed. The kids would take hours to settle. By then, I'd be dog tired to wake up - thus I doze. I'd wake up halfway to pump milk again. Bathe and try to stay upbeat. Cos I forgot that today I have yet to spend some time with him. Alone. Then the eyelids wouldn't open. I'm thinking about the bed. And that I have to wake up at 5.30 to pump milk again. I guess I AM SELFISH. This reflection shows and proves it. Have you done your own reflections today? Have you neglected an important person in your life just because you can't manage? There is no excuse. Cos you are the one to be blamed. |